Glimmers of hope. #167 Continue reading “Glimmers of hope #167”
I don’t know how to make sense of a therapist telling me…
…she feels like she wants to cuddle me.
I want to scream. And again this is a post I feel like shouldn’t go here. I know I haven’t been on wordpress in a while. And I haven’t caught up on anyone’s posts. Yet I want people to read and respond. And feel bad that I want that when I can’t give that at the moment. Continue reading “I don’t know how to make sense of a therapist telling me…”
Questions for this therapist 2
Last time I wrote this it was completely for myself to clarify what I was thinking – put it into some semblance of separation. My language on here recently really needs an upgrade! Whoops, I actually wrote elsewhere that I was going to close my laptop. I’ve closed that browser instead (there’s a tab I need to exit that I’m not ready to shut, so closing the window means it’ll come up when I open it – same as if I open the laptop, but it’s not open at the moment). I love how distractable I am! Continue reading “Questions for this therapist 2”
Questions for therapist I met
I have some questions for this therapist I met last week (and 2 weeks ago). Continue reading “Questions for therapist I met”
Looking for a therapist. Random post
This is a random post I feel like I shouldn’t write on a reasons blog yet I’d love some feedback if that’s possible. Continue reading “Looking for a therapist. Random post”
Self talk – dialogue 101
I’m not sure what to title this post. Nor am I sure that I’m doing the right thing to write this out. I dialogued with myself when there was too much unnamed going on that I couldn’t handle. I think I want to share, as I want to know I’m not alone, and I’m pretty damn proud of what I did here. I think the most amazing part – to me – was that it actually helped. A little. Continue reading “Self talk – dialogue 101”
One Hundred and Eighteen: I Hate You – Don’t Leave Me
One Hundred and Eighteen. I hate you – don’t leave me. Book reviews anyone? Continue reading “One Hundred and Eighteen: I Hate You – Don’t Leave Me”
He left.
I’m in tears here. And, it’s okay. I’m allowed to cry.
I’m rewriting all the letters I wrote to myself out in a separate journal. I have them all over, dotted through my journals (and considering that I use on average a new journal every 2 months, sometimes less, sometimes more), and in various places online. I want them all together. Continue reading “He left.”
AH
I’m in tears here. And I should journal. But this is something I want to write here.
I miss AH.
I’ve actually nothing else to say other than that. I miss AH. And there’s absolutely nothing I can do about it. I don’t know what the right thing even is. Continue reading “AH”
Rambling about/to AH
I was writing this as though addressing AH. I began responding to his email. Which turned into a ramble. Which I’d love thoughts on, but I doubt this post will be read by anyone. Continue reading “Rambling about/to AH”
Letter to AH 29th April ’18
Dear AH
I’m going to try and put this down although I’ve no clue how to. As I’ve mentioned, I’m frustrated with you. It’s not that I think you’ve done anything wrong, I actually don’t, yet I’m frustrated. And not really sure how to explain it. I feel like you don’t hear anything I ever say. I know you’ve actually answered that before. With what I think is evident is not even latent. Doesn’t really help to know that. For it goes back to the fact that I feel like I’m talking a different language to most the universe.