Reason 164….. safety.
I rarely feel safe. Mainly within myself, and if I don’t feel safe within myself, I don’t/can’t feel safe within the world, with people, or anything or anyone at all.
At the moment, feeling slightly safer. More grounded and present. And for the first time in a couple of months I can think of using cocodamol and see that at this moment I don’t have to use. At this moment I don’t necessarily want to either. Just feeling safer. Within myself. Therefore within the world. Music playing (I’m invincible by Cassadee Pope). Pen and paper to journal next to me. A book to read next to me. A colouring pad and colours next to me. I’m tired, drained, and grateful. That for this moment I’m feeling safe within myself. That for this moment I’m not wondering what I’m creating and what’s real. For it just is.
164 – the feeling of safety I have this moment. That I know I can feel safe. That I can believe that one day I will always feel safe within myself.
So long as there’s life, there’s hope.
Love, light and glitter
Ps, I hate the wording of this post and feel like I haven’t managed to capture what I mean at all, but posting it anyways. I haven’t posted reasons in a while. Haven’t been able to think of any reasons. So I’m grateful that I can think of one. If you’d like to share your reason please email me at firstname.lastname@example.org