I wrote this as wanting to self harm or use. I have so much I can use…. Both of which aren’t options. Had an appointment today with someone who didn’t have time. I wanted to ask for a referral to a nutritionist but I couldn’t as couldn’t explain myself when I just didn’t and don’t deserve it.
I just wanted to remind you of how worth it you are. I know it is hard. I know you are finding it hard to deal. You are worth it. I know you want to prove that you aren’t (worth it). No matter what happens you will always be worth it. No one can change that Eliza. No one can make it otherwise. Not even yourself. You’ll always deserve to be okay. I promise you that. I’m sorry it’s hurting so much. I wish I could tell you how to deal with it, and, I can’t, for I don’t know what is going on. Just know that you are okay. That it will, has to, change. That you deserve it. What you want Eliza, to live life, to live a life you love, you can get. You will get there. I promise you. You deserve it. And it is possible.
I love you. And am with you. Always.