I love that today is a good day. That this week has been a good week. You know, it’s all down to you. You held on. You didn’t give up. When you were freaking out, desperate to self harm, use, and destroy yourself and the good things, you held on. You didn’t act on it. You may have been freaking out, you were, yet you held on. Remember that for next time.
The going will get tough. What you were freaking out about – that you can’t create a life for yourself, you don’t deserve to – will probably come up again. That and other things. You’ll want to destroy yourself. And, it’s okay. For it will pass. And you’ll get through it stronger than you were. More secure. Having worked through some of it. Just hold on…
Hold on Eliza, always. It is worth it. This journey is worth it. It’s a journey filled with ups and downs. It’s a journey of learning,. Of learning who you are. Remember that letter you wrote to yourself about the journey? It is a journey. One I am so grateful you are taking. It so could have been otherwise. You could have given in any point along the way. Yet, you didn’t. You held on.
You held on.
Hold on to life Eliza. Hold on to how worth it you, and this journey you are travelling, is and will be.
I’m looking forward to being with you on this ride. You are one of the most awesome people I have met and I’m looking forward to getting to know you. I’m looking forward to discovering who you are. I’m looking forward. To see where life can and will take us.
Just hold on.
It always is, and always will be worth it.
Just hold on.
I love you Eliza.
Always and forever