It’s the end of yet another day. The day’s seem endless now, but they won’t always be this long. There’ll come a time when you wonder where the days flew to, why you have so little time.
There’ll come a time…. Continue reading “Letter to myself: 12th February ’18”
It just hurts
It just hurts
It just hurts so damn much
Continue reading “Sometimes”
I think I feel vulnerable to copy what I wrote here. Oh well.
I love you. I’ve way too much to tell you and I don’t know where to start.
First thing – you are worth it. First, second, third and last. Always. You are worth it.
Continue reading “Letter to myself: 18th January”
The stop button
I look around
Left and right
I look around
But it’s nowhere
Nowhere to be found Continue reading “The stop button”
Hey, I love the album/artist against the current…
So I wrote this last night at 3.36 am when I was bored. I promise I slept last night! For a couple of hours before I woke up and a couple of hours after. I don’t know how much clarity my rambling journaling will have had at that hour. I guess if this make sense to you I’ll be lucky. I’d love to hear!! Continue reading “Seventy Three: Rowing against the current”
I love you. I’m sorry it’s hurting so much at the moment. It’s kinda like a thread about to snap. I love you Eliza. Eliza, it’s so hard to believe in hope when that’s all you ever have done and it doesn’t seem to help or make a different. Eliza, look at your life from the point of view of an outsider. Continue reading “Letter to myself: 15th January ’18”
You’ve come to the end of yet another day. I’m super proud of you. You stayed present for the entire day today, and that is really major. You went out with your special needs sister and stayed patient with her for nearly 2 hours. You relaxed. Tried to stay calm today although you’ve been really on edge. Continue reading “Letter to myself: 14th January ’18”
I wrote this as wanting to self harm or use. I have so much I can use…. Both of which aren’t options. Had an appointment today with someone who didn’t have time. I wanted to ask for a referral to a nutritionist but I couldn’t as couldn’t explain myself when I just didn’t and don’t deserve it.
Continue reading “LTM: 8 Jan”
The sun. This wouldn’t necessarily be a reason if there were no such thing as winter, and freezing cold.
I was in pain yesterday and didn’t know what to do about it. I mean, it was hurting! For something to register enough as pain – that I actually name it as such – it has to hurt a damn lot. Continue reading “Sixty Nine: The sun”
I wrote a post a while back, Reason 54 – you’re okay. I know this is similar, but, for me it’s a different reason.
I’m okay. Hear that? I. Am. Okay. Continue reading “Sixty Eight: I’m okay”
I decided to write to myself.
Just breathe. This, too, shall pass. It’s hard at the moment. Overwhelming. And, it’s okay, you’re okay. I know it may seem otherwise. Listen to the side that wants what is best. Listen to the side that cares. Continue reading “LTM: Random”
I am not sure why I am finding this moment hard. It’s pretty obvious why – I need sleep.
The quote set as my featured image – go as long as you can and take another step used to be my motto. Just another step. Just another breath. This too shall pass. Continue on….
What helps you continue on?
I am sitting here wanting to cry. I am touched. In a random country trying to buy something from a vending machine. I have the currency but not in a form the machine would accept. Some random guy asks me what I want, buys it for me, Continue reading “Sixty Six: People who give”
I usually live completely in my own head. It’s as though I live on a parallel universe to the world. Mixing metaphors here, but, it’s like the universe is travelling on one train track and I am on my own train on the track next to it. I see what happens in the other train through the windows but I am on my own train. Continue reading “Sixty Five: Being present”