Today’s been tough. Lots of thoughts swirling around. Sadness for this girl who never knows what life for bring. I wrote her a letter earlier I wish I could have told you this before you killed yourself. Jealousy that she isn’t here anymore. Continue reading “One Hundred and Sixty: A reason (linked)”
A 16 year old girl in my community committed suicide the other day. I wish I could have spoken to her. I’m not sure if I’d know what to tell her. I’m not sure that there’s anything to say.
Dear ____ . Scrap the dear.
If you’re reading this I’m guessing you’re suicidal. Have thought, are thinking of, suicide as a viable option. I know that place. Where the only option is to end your life in order to end the pain. It isn’t about ending your life I know. It’s about stopping the world. Getting off from a world you didn’t ask to be part of. Maybe that’s just how I see it. The train moving way too fast on the tracks, the tracks ending at a cliff, the train is going to hurtle down the cliff and you’re going to be shattered to pieces at the bottom. Or you can just get off the train of life. Continue reading “I wish I could have told you this before you killed yourself”
I’d love you to add your reasons, or to post here. To do so please email me email@example.com
Someone just sent me the following message
Place your mouse on the E below and drag to the U.
Even though you can’t see him, god is there for yoU
I thought this was really helpful. I think I should dress up now! Put on makeup, curl my hair (and post a selfie on here???) Continue reading “One Hundred and Forty Two: 20 Questions to Ask Yourself if You Feel Like Giving Up (reblog)”
This is a random post I feel like I shouldn’t write on a reasons blog yet I’d love some feedback if that’s possible. Continue reading “Looking for a therapist. Random post”
The world’s been looking like a really dark place to me recently. I’ll share what I wrote this morning depicting the darkness at the end of this post. Yet somehow it’s not as dark at the moment.
Winners win. Not because they don’t fall. Because they get back up. We all fall. We all slip up. Continue reading “One Hundred and Twelve: Winners win”
I want to destroy it. I want to self harm just to destroy it. Self harm rather than painkillers as it’s less destructive. It’s fun to be okay. I’m just tired of it. And so on edge and not sure what or why or how to handle any of it.
I feel like all I am doing is pushing off the inevitable.
I’m not sure why I feel like I’ve written something like this before, either way.
I was actually discussing this with someone, I was trying to tell her why it isn’t necessarily wrong to go backwards. Continue reading “Eighty Nine: Going backwards to go forwards”
Today is a new day.
Just for today I want to enjoy the day.
Just for today I want to stay with the reality Continue reading “Just for today”
I wrote this elsewhere, and decided to take it and go with it, try make something positive of it.
As I said, I feel like I’ve fallen off the cliff edge and have no clue how to prepare myself for landing, or what even is at the bottom, way too far off for me to see.
Continue reading “Shards”
I’ve been looking through some old things…
I wrote this about a year ago. Continue reading “I want to believe – somehow”
Just breathe. Ever heard that one before? Just breathe? But yeah, just breathe. Coz’, you’re okay. Coz’ you will be okay. You ask will you ever get there? Continue reading “Letter to myself: 10th April ’18”