Letter to myself: 16th January

This is going to be short as it’s late and I am using my phone.

Dear Eliza

It’s the end of yet another day. I’m super proud of you. For living. For being. The little things do add up even if you can’t yet see how. The world is a confusing and challenging place for you. I wish I could change it but I can’t. You’ve just gotta live through it and hope and believe that with time it will change. The effort doesn’t seem worth the outcome, but hey, you never know.

I love you Eliza. You’re worth it. You can and will get there. I promise you. I believe in you.


My new years resolution

Well, I have a few.

My primary New year’s resolution is to live through the year. I don’t mean as in live for a year which would be dating and make me suicidal at the end but to do all I can this year to live. To be okay in the world. Find my place in this world.

Which includes sticking with therapy although I can’t see a point. Which includes asking questions. Finding my place. Working through what I believe. Building healthy relationships. To live through this year. However daunting and scary that seems at the moment.

What are your plans, goals or thoughts for this year?



Four more reasons until the 50th.

It would help if I could actually think of any…. I want my 50th to be written in 9 days. Today it all is too much. Wherever I write I am stuck for words. There’s too much for me to be able to put it down.

So long,


Forty Two: People who care

I never knew that I could post on my phone. It’ll have to be short because I am on here. When I am back on my laptop I hope to fill in the posts properly.

I’ll miss posting here

Won’t be posting for the next few days. Will miss this focusing. Will try think of reasons (that I’ll probably forget when I want to write them 😉 ) anyways, at least write them up in my head if nowhere else.

So long,


How can you post here?

Hey again,

So as most of you who are reading this know, I want everyone to be able to create their own posts on here….. If you want to post on here, it seems so complicated, I mean, to post on someone else’s blog? Really, I just have to add you as an author. So, on the contact page you are given information for how to contact me. You can fill out the contact form telling me that you’d like to be added as an author. Or just send an email directly. You’ll need to send a username, email address and password that you would like to use. Once you’ve done that I can invite you to post, and hey presto, you’ll be an author on this blog! I’d love for you to come and write your own posts, however long or short you want them to be.

So long,


Charting a path – the tunnel

I once begun writing this and never finished it. This is the unfinished, combined version….
I’m walking through a tunnel, long and winding. I walk along, through the blackness and wonder when the tunnel ends. But, I know, ‘there’s a light at the end of the tunnel’. I can see the glimmer, and that directs me. ‘Due to a technical fault the light at the end of the tunnel has been switched off’. Now, I’m walking in complete darkness. Without the guidance of the light. But I know with certainty that there’s an end to this tunnel, so, I continue walking. When, CRASH.

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My intro post


So, introduction post, anyone??? This is to let all the many (I hope it won’t be zero!) readers know what this blog is about. Well, I don’t really know how to start, I want it to be interesting, and not have everyone rolling their eyes with boredom and stop reading before they start…. I guess I’ll start from the beginning. Ya know how they always say you should start at the beginning and all that….

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