New blogs #172

As I wrote, I just started a new blog – Journey To Life – rather than journey from suicidality. At the moment that’s making me smile and giving me a positive feeling. I don’t understand why it’s doing that, but hey, I’m not complaining! I’m grateful for it. For another reason to live. The world has been feeling so dark recently and anything that gives me glimmers of smiles, even if the smiles are thought smile rather than shown, I’m grateful for. See you there as well as here.

Love, light and glitter

Eliza

Finally Finding Ourselves, A Meaning To Life by Mark #171

This post was written and contributed by Mark. Thank you Mark for sharing your reason


My reason to live was in understanding the journey we all make to find ourselves. Seeing that it wasn’t in fact ‘all pointless’ because I couldn’t find an end to the misery. It was when I understood, after going through a part of my life that I describe as ‘the dark night of the soul’, and on coming out the other side realising that it all does have purpose. None of us can ‘see’ the end product or it would lose its purpose because we would realise we’ll be fine and ‘let go’ of our journey. Our journey, as rough as it is, requires that heartache and pain so that we can realise that we are very loveable by breaking through that fear and negativity that have been ingrained from childhood, finding a self worth for ourselves and finally seeing ourselves in truth and not buried behind those walls we build to protect us from that pain. Hard yes, but a very achievable and beautiful place once found and understood. Continue reading “Finally Finding Ourselves, A Meaning To Life by Mark #171”

Letter to myself 25th March ’19

I don’t know if I’m really going to try and write to myself or not. I guess it doesn’t harm to and I can always just discard the post if I can’t. Now that I actually wrote it I’m not sure what I think. I don’t really know what I wrote or if I want to know. I’m tired and have no way of going to sleep for it seems like it’s going to spiral the moment I let it, so I guess we’ll find out what will be.

Hi E

I don’t really know what to say to you. I don’t know how to reach you. I don’t know what to do to make it okay. Continue reading “Letter to myself 25th March ’19”

Reblog – letter to someone suicidal from a therapist #168

My friend sent me this letter that Stacey wrote. It really touched me.

It reminded me of the letter I wished I could have given to the girl, before she killed herself. I wish I could have told you this before you killed yourself What I wish I could tell anyone before they take the final act. Final because there is no other choice or option. Continue reading “Reblog – letter to someone suicidal from a therapist #168”

Reasons: Dialogue about suicide – 14th Sept ’16

I know I’m random posting some old stuff… but I like the stuff, so it’s getting here. Hope others do too.

Eliza, if I give you the option to die right now would you take it?
Yes. No hesitations
If I tell you that I have the way for you to kill yourself, that would definitely work, would you do it?
I think yes. Though somehow I’d have to think through ending it myself more than it ending

Continue reading “Reasons: Dialogue about suicide – 14th Sept ’16”

Random words

Constriction

Desperation

I just want to

Breathe

I just want to

Be

Suffocation

Desolation

I just want to

Give up

I just want to

Stop

Abruption

Damnation

I just want to

Refuse

I just want to

Use

Accustomisation

Actualisation

I wonder what’ll happen

If I just continue

I wonder what’ll happen

If I live

Letter to myself: 22nd February 2019

I haven’t actually written to myself in quite a while. I’ve been wanting to all week so I guess I’m going to try.

Eliza,

Hi E

I don’t really know what to say to you. I don’t know how to tune into your world and really reach you. And that makes me sad. For me. For you. For both of us. All the same. That the distance is so necessary coz’ otherwise it just hurts so much. Continue reading “Letter to myself: 22nd February 2019”

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