I love you. I’m sorry it’s hurting so much at the moment. It’s kinda like a thread about to snap. I love you Eliza. Eliza, it’s so hard to believe in hope when that’s all you ever have done and it doesn’t seem to help or make a different. Eliza, look at your life from the point of view of an outsider. Continue reading “Letter to myself: 15th January ’18”
You’ve come to the end of yet another day. I’m super proud of you. You stayed present for the entire day today, and that is really major. You went out with your special needs sister and stayed patient with her for nearly 2 hours. You relaxed. Tried to stay calm today although you’ve been really on edge. Continue reading “Letter to myself: 14th January ’18”
I’m so happy that you’re starting to write this letter again.
When you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot to someone else’s. I’m not quite sure whose rope there is to tie your to, but, you aren’t alone. I know that these days are hard. Continue reading “Letter to myself: 13th January ’18”
You are worth it. It’s the end, nearing, of yet another really long day. I’m proud of you. You were on time to work, patient with the people around you, made and ate healthy food (been eating junk breakfast, lunch, dinner), journaled. After being up since 4am Continue reading “Letter to myself: 11th January ’18”
This is probably going to be short as it’s late, I’m exhausted, should head to bed, and I’m doing it on here (instead of journaling it in my journal and then copying it here). Well, maybe it’ll lead to the opposite
I’m supposedly meant to write a letter to you. The purpose of the letter is to tell you that I love you, Continue reading “LTM: 10th January ’18”
Decided that I want to write to myself every night for a week (let’s see if can even manage a week, but I like the idea).
I love you. It’s nearing the end of a day for you. Another day of living life. It’s an accomplishment Eliza. Continue reading “LTM: 9th January ’18”
I wrote this as wanting to self harm or use. I have so much I can use…. Both of which aren’t options. Had an appointment today with someone who didn’t have time. I wanted to ask for a referral to a nutritionist but I couldn’t as couldn’t explain myself when I just didn’t and don’t deserve it.
Continue reading “LTM: 8 Jan”
I decided to write to myself.
Just breathe. This, too, shall pass. It’s hard at the moment. Overwhelming. And, it’s okay, you’re okay. I know it may seem otherwise. Listen to the side that wants what is best. Listen to the side that cares. Continue reading “LTM: Random”
You wanted to write this, to see if it’ll help. Except that sitting here, pen in hand, you wonder how writing to yourself can help. Especially when you’re writing in 3rd person. So don’t. Hi Eliza. This is yourself speaking. Weird. Scrap that. I don’t know what I want to hear, so don’t know what to write. I don’t know what will help. I don’t know how to calm myself down.
Continue reading “LTM: Living in this world”
Just to wish you good luck for this evening, and tell you how proud I am of you.
I’m proud of you for going out even when you’re scared of it. When you know it’ll be hard, and you know you’re likely to put your foot into it big time.
Continue reading “LTM: Nervous about going out”
I’m not sure why I’m sharing this here. Was writing to myself now as have been freaking for hours and had to find a way to calm down. I should really get back to writing to myself more. It helps.
Continue reading “Letter to myself”