Just breathe. I love you Eliza. Just breathe. Relax. You are okay. Listen to the cars in the distance, hear the motors hum. Listen to the breeze, soft, gentle, barely discernible. Listen to the chatter of the birds that can be heard although they seem far away. Tune into the music playing from the stereo just inside. Continue reading “Letter to myself: 2nd February ’18”
I’m writing this on my phone so it’s going to be shorter than otherwise. I hate writing on my phone.
I love you. Just breathe. You are okay. I know you are on edge. I know the moment is really hard for you. I don’t know how to change it.
Continue reading “Letter to myself: 6th February ’18”
Going to write to myself now – kinda early. My head is a mess and maybe this’ll help.
Just breathe. You’ve got this girl. You really do. You can do this. Where do I start? Start at the end, maybe?? :) Eliza, it’s okay to be tired. It’s normal.
Continue reading “Letter to myself: 30th January”
I’m so not sure what on earth I want to say
Proud of you gal. For continuing on. For going as long as you can, and taking the next step.
Continue reading “Letter to myself: 29th January”
I’m trying to think about what my message tonight should be to you, and, I can’t decide. So Eliza, I just want to let you know that I love you. That I think – that I know with 100% certainty, that you deserve it, that you are worth it. I believe in you Eliza. Yes, even when you intimidate people and they don’t accept your apology ;). I’m proud of you Eliza.
Continue reading “Letter to myself: 27th January”
I’m not really sure what to say. I’m not sure what I need to hear. Well, we’ll try. The royal we. Me, myself and I. Sometimes I feel like I live with that. The me, myself and I. I don’t know what I need to hear, I just know that I need some grounding, some sense of safety, and, I’m the only person who can give it to myself. Continue reading “Letter to myself: 25th January ’18”
Just to tell you that I love you. You’re worth it. You deserve it. And you will get there. Just breathe. You’ll be okay. This will pass. Life will pass. And you will be okay – somehow.
Luv ya. You’re worth it.
I’ve been writing to myself still – in my journal. Just haven’t posted them here as, they don’t say anything. But I’m writing here now as rather write on here at the moment than journal.
I wish I could come and clear all the darkness, all the pain. I wish I could make it different.
Continue reading “Letter to myself: 23rd January ’18”
I think I feel vulnerable to copy what I wrote here. Oh well.
I love you. I’ve way too much to tell you and I don’t know where to start.
First thing – you are worth it. First, second, third and last. Always. You are worth it.
Continue reading “Letter to myself: 18th January”
This is again going to be short…
Dear Eliza I am proud of you. I’m glad it’s the end of another day and that today was calmer. Just as it was an easier day today, when the going gets tough, remember it does get easier. I don’t know that the journey is worth it. I sure hope it is. What I do know, however, is that you are worth it. That you deserved to be okay and that you can do it.
This is going to be short as it’s late and I am using my phone.
It’s the end of yet another day. I’m super proud of you. For living. For being. The little things do add up even if you can’t yet see how. The world is a confusing and challenging place for you. I wish I could change it but I can’t. You’ve just gotta live through it and hope and believe that with time it will change. The effort doesn’t seem worth the outcome, but hey, you never know.
I love you Eliza. You’re worth it. You can and will get there. I promise you. I believe in you.
I love you. I’m sorry it’s hurting so much at the moment. It’s kinda like a thread about to snap. I love you Eliza. Eliza, it’s so hard to believe in hope when that’s all you ever have done and it doesn’t seem to help or make a different. Eliza, look at your life from the point of view of an outsider. Continue reading “Letter to myself: 15th January ’18”
You’ve come to the end of yet another day. I’m super proud of you. You stayed present for the entire day today, and that is really major. You went out with your special needs sister and stayed patient with her for nearly 2 hours. You relaxed. Tried to stay calm today although you’ve been really on edge. Continue reading “Letter to myself: 14th January ’18”
I’m so happy that you’re starting to write this letter again.
When you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot to someone else’s. I’m not quite sure whose rope there is to tie your to, but, you aren’t alone. I know that these days are hard. Continue reading “Letter to myself: 13th January ’18”
I know it’s the 13th today, but I didn’t get to do this yesterday, and I figure there’s no harm it doing it now for yesterday
Writing today for yesterday? Just to tell you that you’re worth it Continue reading “Letter to myself: 12th January ’18”