I started this site when I was suicidal and wanted to focus on the reasons to live rather than the reasons to die. I’d love this list to keep on growing and growing…. I can’t do it on my own. I want and need help writing reason posts.
A 16 year old girl in my community committed suicide the other day. I wish I could have spoken to her. I’m not sure if I’d know what to tell her. I’m not sure that there’s anything to say.
Dear ____ . Scrap the dear.
If you’re reading this I’m guessing you’re suicidal. Have thought, are thinking of, suicide as a viable option. I know that place. Where the only option is to end your life in order to end the pain. It isn’t about ending your life I know. It’s about stopping the world. Getting off from a world you didn’t ask to be part of. Maybe that’s just how I see it. The train moving way too fast on the tracks, the tracks ending at a cliff, the train is going to hurtle down the cliff and you’re going to be shattered to pieces at the bottom. Or you can just get off the train of life. Continue reading “I wish I could have told you this before you killed yourself”
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You are stronger than you could ever imagine. You are here. You could so easily have killed yourself. Yet you chose to give life a go. You chose life. Not death. You chose life for all the reasons you write. Primarily because death is final, life still gives you another option. And the belief. The belief in a little flicker of a light that was shadowed against the wall. You couldn’t see any light. You saw a reflection of a pinprick. You chose to believe in the light. Continue reading “LTM: 18th July ’19”
I’m grateful. I’m grateful that I can journal through dialogue. I’m grateful that I learn what’s going on for myself. I’m grateful for how much putting it down calms me.
Dialogue journaling – #186
Why did you buy cocodamol?
I want it. (Stamps imaginary foot in head)
You’re allowed to want it
You’re allowed to want everything Eliza.
Eliza, you’re allowed to want everything.
What can’t you?
Okay. You can though.
Am I going to change your mind?
You can’t. It’s […]
It is shabbat soon. Nearly time for the meal (after which you won’t be online or writing). You’re overwhelmed. And you’re okay. You know you haven’t been journaling enough. I know you’re tired. Of trying so hard. And you’re okay. You’re really okay.
I love you Eliza. I love all of you. The good, the bad, the pretty, the ugly.
Darkness is the absence of light. Fill the world with light. Fill your world with light. You’re worth it, it’s worth it, and the world is worth it.
I love you and I’m with you. God is with you too. Every single step of the way.
When the going gets tough, just hold on. Hold on to hope. Remember why you’re doing this. Coz it’s awesome. Coz the world is filled with beauty. Coz you’re getting to chart a path, to chart your path, to create a life for yourself, a life beyond your wildest dreams.
It’s a journey. One I, god, and so many others are with you on. People can care about you Eliza. And people can stay.
Always and forever,
I love that today is a good day. That this week has been a good week. You know, it’s all down to you. You held on. You didn’t give up. When you were freaking out, desperate to self harm, use, and destroy yourself and the good things, you held on. You didn’t act on it. You may have been freaking out, you were, yet you held on. Remember that for next time. Continue reading “LTM: 6th July ’19”
Lying in the grass. Lying in the grass is most definitely my reason to live for today. Just lying in the grass feeling the sun…. Continue reading “Lying in the grass #185”
Let Our Love Shine!
It’s Tamara! I find joy in life by taking the love that God gives to me, and letting it shine outward so that others can find comfort and hope.
us not numb
ourselves, to the point of
sacrificing our truest and most noble
feelings by attempting to Continue reading “Let Our Love Shine, Reason 184”
Not Alone, Reason 183
Hi, this is Tamara, and when I feel despair in life, it gives me hope in knowing that I do not go at it alone; in fact, I am never alone! This is reason to fight onward with my fellow brothers and sisters!
No exceptions are given to anyone from the terrible suffering in which we all experience in our fallen world. However, there is comfort in knowing that we are never alone in whatever pains befall us.
Illusions of isolation and aloneness during our misery tend to heighten our despair, and thicken the dreadful sludge of gloom in which we must drag ourselves during these bleak times.
This is Tamara!
Doses of shimmering colors and soft, pastel shades can be seen in greater richness and vibrancy when viewed through the healing touch of a child’s eyes. This is reason to find great joy and wonder in life!
If I could glimpse through a child’s eyes
at all the wondrous beauty that they see,
My eyes would drink in so much joy,
and these captivating feasts
would satisfy me!
I would see the sun glossing a sugar-pink rose,
and a turquoise river flowing wild and free;
There would be rainbows on every corner,
Continue reading “Child’s Eyes, Reason 182”
Hey, there! It’s Tamara, again, and I’m on a roll!
As far as Reason #181, I love the Lord’s warm, loving reflection upon my heart, as a major reason to find joy in being alive!
In this poem, I am feeling rather blue from the bitter cold, but the Lord comes through (which is really no surprise as long as we trust him).
Winter had come quite early for her,
though in reality, it was still early autumn;
she wore a coat, hat, and gloves, Continue reading “Reflection, Reason 181”
Hi! Tamara, here…
I enjoy watching Water Dancers.
I will explain, below:
Bright, silver triangles,
shimmering beneath the sun,
bobbing up and down,
amongst crystalline dwellings,
Life is a journey. A journey filled with ups and downs. This moment of the journey is an ‘up’. A time you are calm. You are at peace. You are okay. Things happen that you don’t like, and you are just okay. I love this time. I love the peace. The awesomeness. I love you Eliza. Continue reading “Letter to myself: 20th June 2019”
Hello, this is Tamara –
Big Dogs are cool, and fun! Having fun is a good enough reason, in my book, to live!
My dad’s 100-plus pound dog, a silky Black Labrador (with a coat so glossy, that it shines even when there is no light present), follows me around everywhere.
So, this means that when I sit down, he plops on the floor, right below me.
Thus, as it so happens, I arose from the chair to do some errands, and as I took one gigantic step over him (so as not to actually step right on top of him), he also rose up (there is humor in this), and so, all at once, I found myself riding on the back of this big, black horse!
Changing My Mind
Hello, this is Tamara!
Changing my mind often is a lovely reason to live because it makes life exciting!
Yes, I change my mind all too often,
but at least I even have a mind to change!
And, I am never boring to be around;
Hi :) I love you, you know.
This world is full of triggers. Being triggered means as much as you want it to mean. Being triggered is normal. Continue reading “Letter to myself: 19th June”
I’ve been thinking about reasons to live for the past few days.
I haven’t written on here in a while, for I haven’t been needing it in the same way. I don’t need the reasons in the same way. Friday was triggering. I was speaking to someone who told me that the reason she isn’t killing herself now is because she is religious and believes it is wrong. I know that’s the reason. We’ve discussed it before. Yet someone the thought was majorly triggering for me. For I was thinking about how I don’t believe it’s wrong. How I don’t know what I believe about religion. How I don’t even care if it IS wrong, that’s so not a reason not to end it….. Continue reading “I don’t want to hurt my family #177”