Last week at a mindfulness course we did the mountain meditation. I listened to it again this morning. It says to compare ourselves to a mountain. Life happens. Storms rage. Winds howl. The sun shines. Snow glitters. Continue reading “One Hundred and Forty Seven: Mountain mindfulness meditation”
One Hundred and Thirty Nine. Life itself. I’m grateful to be here. I’m grateful that I’m grateful to be here. Continue reading “One Hundred and Thirty Nine: I’m grateful to be alive”
I love you. I’m proud of you. Even as you get upset with your sister. I’m proud of you. I love you. Even as you hate that you’ve eaten too much. I love you even as you hate your body. I don’t know why you do. It’s kinda more recent. Maybe transference? I love you Eliza. Whatever you do or don’t do, I love you. And am proud of you. I wish I had a magic wand. Continue reading “Letter to myself: You aren’t guilty.”
I find unopened boxes a great joy! They bring about exuberant excitement and great anticipation!
Most of the time, when I buy something that I have long wished for, I will bring the item home, stare at its unopened housing, and Continue reading “Unopened Boxes! One Hundred Forty Six”
I’ve had this reason swirling in my mind for a while. It’s not really a reason, but at the same time, it is.
This summer I was going through a particularly hard time. One day, as I was swimming in the sea, and I was getting very tired from the current, I thought to myself “What if I just stay here? Let the water overtake me? Wouldn’t that just be better?”
But then I thought – No, I want to go down when I’m up. I want to leave This World when I’m on top and not when I’m feeling so low and down. I want to leave on a positive note, I want the world to remember me for the goodness I have brought into it and not the opposite.
The thought didn’t make anything better, but hey the waves didn’t get to me that day.
I’m willing to push through in order to say, this was a life well-lived. I want to end on top, when I’m up and not down.