Going to write to myself now – kinda early. My head is a mess and maybe this’ll help.
Just breathe. You’ve got this girl. You really do. You can do this. Where do I start? Start at the end, maybe?? :) Eliza, it’s okay to be tired. It’s normal.
Continue reading “Letter to myself: 30th January”
I’m so not sure what on earth I want to say
Proud of you gal. For continuing on. For going as long as you can, and taking the next step.
Continue reading “Letter to myself: 29th January”
I’m trying to think about what my message tonight should be to you, and, I can’t decide. So Eliza, I just want to let you know that I love you. That I think – that I know with 100% certainty, that you deserve it, that you are worth it. I believe in you Eliza. Yes, even when you intimidate people and they don’t accept your apology ;). I’m proud of you Eliza.
Continue reading “Letter to myself: 27th January”
It seems like I joined this list – We are the world blogfest – which seems to be about spreading light, to share news stories about light. I’ve never done this before, and am sure that whatever I do will be wrong, as it’s anyways wrong, I may as well just get on with it :) and worst is, I make a mess of this post. Continue reading “Random acts of kindness – #WATWB”
I’m not really sure what to say. I’m not sure what I need to hear. Well, we’ll try. The royal we. Me, myself and I. Sometimes I feel like I live with that. The me, myself and I. I don’t know what I need to hear, I just know that I need some grounding, some sense of safety, and, I’m the only person who can give it to myself. Continue reading “Letter to myself: 25th January ’18”
Just to tell you that I love you. You’re worth it. You deserve it. And you will get there. Just breathe. You’ll be okay. This will pass. Life will pass. And you will be okay – somehow.
Luv ya. You’re worth it.
I’ve been writing to myself still – in my journal. Just haven’t posted them here as, they don’t say anything. But I’m writing here now as rather write on here at the moment than journal.
I wish I could come and clear all the darkness, all the pain. I wish I could make it different.
Continue reading “Letter to myself: 23rd January ’18”
It just hurts
It just hurts
It just hurts so damn much
Continue reading “Sometimes”
I think I feel vulnerable to copy what I wrote here. Oh well.
I love you. I’ve way too much to tell you and I don’t know where to start.
First thing – you are worth it. First, second, third and last. Always. You are worth it.
Continue reading “Letter to myself: 18th January”
The stop button
I look around
Left and right
I look around
But it’s nowhere
Nowhere to be found Continue reading “The stop button”
This is again going to be short…
Dear Eliza I am proud of you. I’m glad it’s the end of another day and that today was calmer. Just as it was an easier day today, when the going gets tough, remember it does get easier. I don’t know that the journey is worth it. I sure hope it is. What I do know, however, is that you are worth it. That you deserved to be okay and that you can do it.
Hey, I love the album/artist against the current…
So I wrote this last night at 3.36 am when I was bored. I promise I slept last night! For a couple of hours before I woke up and a couple of hours after. I don’t know how much clarity my rambling journaling will have had at that hour. I guess if this make sense to you I’ll be lucky. I’d love to hear!! Continue reading “Seventy Three: Rowing against the current”
This is going to be short as it’s late and I am using my phone.
It’s the end of yet another day. I’m super proud of you. For living. For being. The little things do add up even if you can’t yet see how. The world is a confusing and challenging place for you. I wish I could change it but I can’t. You’ve just gotta live through it and hope and believe that with time it will change. The effort doesn’t seem worth the outcome, but hey, you never know.
I love you Eliza. You’re worth it. You can and will get there. I promise you. I believe in you.
I love you. I’m sorry it’s hurting so much at the moment. It’s kinda like a thread about to snap. I love you Eliza. Eliza, it’s so hard to believe in hope when that’s all you ever have done and it doesn’t seem to help or make a different. Eliza, look at your life from the point of view of an outsider. Continue reading “Letter to myself: 15th January ’18”
You’ve come to the end of yet another day. I’m super proud of you. You stayed present for the entire day today, and that is really major. You went out with your special needs sister and stayed patient with her for nearly 2 hours. You relaxed. Tried to stay calm today although you’ve been really on edge. Continue reading “Letter to myself: 14th January ’18”